Transitioning through Change

Just as I accepted my footing where I stand, the rug gets pulled out from under me. This change is a big one and has my mind attempting to take me to places I don’t want to go. Everything happens for a reason – this I know and believe. But that doesn’t lessen the pain... Continue Reading →

Not A Mother

It used to burnEvery insult, every wordBut it helped me learnSelf-worth I had to earnSo I tried every nightTo sit with sorrowAnd eventually it set me free                              - Love Me More, Sam Smith                               Sam Smith - Love Me More (Official Video) - YouTube You tried to box me in – to make me fit your... Continue Reading →

Live Backwards

If only we could live our lives backwards. We’d be prepared for the unknowns. We’d be smart enough to have all the answers. We’d always know which turn would lead us to exactly where we want to be. We’d know when not to leave. And we’d know when to love a little harder, hug a... Continue Reading →

Time & Space

Time – the indefinite continued progress of existence and events in the past, present, and future regarded as a whole. Space – a continuous area or expanse which is free, available, or unoccupied. Respect – due regard for the feelings, wishes, rights, or traditions of others. Take it easy on me. I’m trying. I’ve cried... Continue Reading →

A Letter for My Girl

Dear Charlie, We had 16.5 amazing years together! And I am incredibly grateful for each day that made up each one of those years, but I am selfish, and I wanted more. This wasn’t supposed to happen. You were supposed to live forever. I never thought about how it would feel when you were gone... Continue Reading →

Believe

“The Universe is always speaking to us, sending little messages, causing coincidences, serendipities, reminding us to stop, to look around, to believe in something else, in something more.”   ~ Nancy Thayer I think back to how and when it all began. You observed from a distance, but you were so close. You didn’t even know... Continue Reading →

A Candy Crush

“Sometimes I think that the one thing I love most about being an adult is the right to buy candy whenever I want.”     ~Ryan GoslingI’m like a toddler in a candy store. Eyes wide and wanting it all. It’s such a tease to come this far and only get a taste. Temptation is at its... Continue Reading →

The Men among The boys

Do you ever wonder how it would look if you could line them all up and go one-by-one? It would be your chance to have the last say. You could finally say all those words you’ve rehearsed and release all those buried emotions. And for the lessons you’ve learned and the love they gave, say... Continue Reading →

The Strong Friend

She’s got this! She’ll get through it! She handles everything! Why would this be different from anything else? Except maybe it is. Maybe she really doesn’t have this. This might be the thing that breaks her. This might be her final straw. This could be the time she really does need to know others are... Continue Reading →

Love Me NOW

Don’t ask my favorite flower so you know what to lay in my casket. Don’t ask my favorite song so it can be played on repeat during my funeral. Don’t stand over my lifeless body with tears streaming regretting you didn’t show emotion when I was lying next to you. Don’t keep telling me “not... Continue Reading →

The Reason for The Season

“My idea of Christmas, whether old-fashioned or modern, is very simple: loving others. Come to think of it, why do we have to wait for Christmas to do that?”  ~ Bob Hope We’ve moved from the Week of Gratitude into the Season of Giving. The date on the calendar tells us the time of year... Continue Reading →

Heart vs. Head

It’s wrong – OMG – it’s so wrong, but every moment so right. This has all been a gift. We are just ourselves. We are beautiful! My eyes open wide, gazed into the limitless possibilities I see in yours. I’m lost repeatedly in you and what we share. You fell into my life in the... Continue Reading →

This is Me

This is Me, The Reimagined Remix was apart my Peloton playlist this morning and although I’ve heard this song many times before, the lyrics were moving today. Each one sings true. What a beautiful, inspirational message and such a motivational way to start my day. And so, I decided to use the lyrics as a... Continue Reading →

Unconditional Love

My sweet girl recently celebrated her sweet 16! That’s 121 years old in human years. I can’t believe it! I’ve always said she will live forever and she’s doing everything to prove me right. And I couldn’t be prouder. My heart beams with love for her and all we’ve shared over the past 16 years.... Continue Reading →

Parallel Lives

I woke up reaching out for you – just as I’ve done thousands of times. Except this time, you were there. Our bodies close, unable to tell where you ended, or I began. I was exactly where I belong and so were you. Pulled so tight, I could hear your heartbeat, feel your breath, and... Continue Reading →

Untitled

If I would’ve known the last time, I saw you and the kiss you gave me might be our last, I never would’ve allowed those elevator doors to close. My mind has played you walking down the hall and your stop to turn and take one last glance a million times over. How did we... Continue Reading →

Friendship

The secret ingredient to a happy life is good friends. The definition of friendship is the state of being friends with someone. But to me, it is much more. It’s an unbreakable bond between two souls that trust and support one another. And it’s about the quality of these bonds- not about quantity. Everyone needs... Continue Reading →

Love

Love is easy, beautiful, peaceful, and fulfilling. But despite all the lovely adjectives, I fear love. I pull away as a way of protecting my heart. It’s easier that way. The pain of rejection is too much to endure. And be vulnerable? No thanks! But something felt different; I felt different. I don’t know when... Continue Reading →

Feeling Feelings

I’ve always worn a badge of honor when it comes to my emotions. Under no circumstances would I allow anyone to see me cry. Angry or frustrated, yes, but never sad. My tears were always saved for the shower. I’ve always been this way and maybe because I was raised in a household where feelings... Continue Reading →

Support

There comes a time in everyone’s life when you need support. Be it the small things or the big things, the happy times, or the times you just want to hide in a cave, but at some point, you’ve needed and received support. The type of support varies but it’s all needed and beneficial. There’s... Continue Reading →

Song for My Soul

“Helium” by Sia The first time I heard this song, I became paralyzed by emotion. Never had the words of a song hit me the way this one did. I remember it clearly. I had just pulled into the office parking lot and sat there listening to it in its entirety. Minutes after it ended... Continue Reading →

The BEACH

I love the beach – it’s my happy place! Could be because I’m an Aquarius or maybe because it’s the place where the outside world disappears. The reason doesn’t matter because I am here and it’s perfect! I am at my best when at the beach. And I have never had a bad beach day.... Continue Reading →

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